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godfuckingdamnit [Oct. 14th, 2007|10:50 pm]
[I couldn't wait to surprise you]
[mood |disappointeddisappointed]
[music |Sad Eyes -Josh Rouse]

i hate you because i can't hate you. i just want you to want me like i want you.

why can't i see that that will never happen?

i'm feeling so pathetic over you. really, really, heather, go get yourself a life.
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(no subject) [Aug. 8th, 2007|11:18 pm]
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[mood |anxiousanxious]
[music |Walk Over Me- Dirtie Blonde]

i'm terrified that it won't be the same. and that somehow i will end up disappointing you.

i don't have the best of luck at making these things last.....
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(no subject) [Jun. 12th, 2007|11:42 pm]
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today it fell apart. work was so awful. i got scolded and scolded. they are mad that i quit. i nearly walked out and left them with members swarming and bitching, asking for beer and fresh sugar... i'm so glad that on sunday i can leave that place and never go back.

i haven't wrapped my mind around stratford. how is it already half way through june?

i feel like i've missed so much.
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(no subject) [May. 7th, 2007|11:15 pm]
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i feel better today then i have in a while. i finally had a real shift at nava and made some really money. it was just a little but i feel good about working there. this week with my 87 scheduled hours of work shall be interesting.... but profitable. and its only for 2 months. then i get to go have my shakespearean adventure... and maybe after that a whole month of not working and canoe trips and lots of us time. does that sound nice.

it does to me.
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(no subject) [May. 1st, 2007|10:01 am]
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i guess i just want someone else in this world to know that i am sad right now. when does this get easier? how do you fall out of love? i need to fall out of love because i can hardly breathe anymore. and i hate what i have become. i feel so fragile, so delicate. i hate being such a mess.

and now you're leaving. will you miss me more? i don't know if i can stand to hear your answer.
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(no subject) [Apr. 22nd, 2007|05:56 pm]
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this is so hard

i just want to be alone for all the heartache these boys have given me. facebook is the devil.

i guess we really have changed. and you don't love me like you used to. and that is what hurts the most. i bet she made you change it. and thats okay. but i know you're just pretending with her. unless you're just pretending with me. either way, its done, its fine, i'm finished. i can't see you. i don't want to see you. happy life, hey?
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(no subject) [Apr. 16th, 2007|05:25 pm]
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oh man i hope it gets fixed... the clogged drain in my shower that is.... because i am a dirty little one... and i can't go shower in the hail storm...

also: please let all of this work out.... the subletters and moving and everything...

time is a-running out
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(no subject) [Apr. 14th, 2007|10:12 am]
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will be done third year/ second year round two at 4 pm this afternoon

in 6 days i will be sitting at home. and i love the sound of that.

he didn't call
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(no subject) [Apr. 10th, 2007|08:50 am]
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i am distracting myself with fake sun chocolate bad movies and studying

are you really going to call?

home in 10
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(no subject) [Apr. 7th, 2007|06:52 pm]
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its snowing like it should have in winter. it feels like its almost christmas (says denise) not like almost summer.

and things are done done done

and why i couldn't tell you
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